Past few months

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

Past few months has been hectic. A lot of thing has happened, with ups and downs. But one thing for sure I am relieve that I finish my AS paper already. 1 year down 1 year to go. Going back to January it was a good start of the year getting to meet with my friends back in college. Little did I know that its going to be a bumpy ride up ahead. I have realized that sometimes the most precious things that you have and cherish wont last long. I came to know who are the enemies and who are friends. Sometimes the person you taught to be your friend can just leave you without any reason. The struggle for sem 2 is real. My grades are going down as for my life too. I don't know whether I can keep going at that point. At a time I just feel like lie in bed cry my heart out , forget everything and wakeup the next day with every problem fade. Life doesn't work like that. I always tell myself to be myself. Live my life to my full potential. But the thing is I always need somebody to rely on. Always need someone to hold my hand. Even though I keep telling myself to be independent I'm not sure if I could. But I consider myself lucky to still have someone who is willing to give me their hand, support me through my hard time and motivate me to keep pushing further and further in my life. Life use to be a happy one but one wrong step you take can turn it into misery. 

To my current friend. Thanks for being there for me. There is nothing I could do to repay that and there is no word that could describe how thankful I am. You are there in times of needs and supporting me through my journey in life. I hope our friendship will last forever and more sweet bitter memory can be create together.

To my future friend. I might not seem friendly cause Im scared of opening up and be friend with people cause you might end up to hate me or annoyed by me. Ill try my best to be the best of friend I can be. 

To my Ex friend. Thanks for being there for me. I dont know why we have made our separate ways but I believe theres always a reason behind everything that had happened. Its just sadden me and make me wonder why cause we never have a proper closure. Anyway all the best in your life. RIP my once I called friends

To my enemy. I dont care if you want to hate me. Its none of my buisness. As long as you dont do anything bad to me I dont care. But dont cross the boundary. Just go live your life and F@#@$NG stay away from me. For whatever reason you hate me just stay away from me. I wouldnt mind.

Well I dont know how the next few months gonna be. But I know its not gonna be an easy ride. Whatever happen I just have to stay strong like I always did and push myself further. Find happiness and cure the saddness. Just be the best you can be and dont bother about what other people think. #sexyme