Feeling...

Assalamualaikum...

       What is this feeling. I never felt anything like it before. Its like deep inside. My heads hurt. Maybe because I think too much. Why do I have to think about it. I want to forget it all. Forget everything. Maybe if I get amnesia the pain will be gone. Hahaha I wish I could. Just forget all the pain. And live a new life. A new me. Someone who is always happy and days full of smile. Forget the problems and forget the pain. Aku terlalu yakin yang aku kuat. But ternyata aku lemah. Why I feel empty??? Why is this feeling haunting me??? I have commited to much sin. If this is the ways Allah nak hapuskan dosa aku. Aku reda. Im just hoping when Im there all the pain is gone. I want to forget everything. I want to forget the past and live the future. Like I always say. Smile can ease the pain. So keep smiling Irfan never let the problem revealed your weakness. You made your decision therefore you have to face it. Biarlah apa orang nak cakap sekalipun. You are you, no one can change that, no can change who you are and only you can change who you are. Pekakkan telinga, butakan mata. Follow your heart, what ever you do follow your heart. And one more thing what ever you do, just believe in yourself, have a trust in yourself. You can do it. You are strong Irfan. Wake up. Smile and smile and smile... Be yourself again. Dont pretend to be someone you are not. Dont pretend to love or like something you dont. Keep searching. Everything is in you. You dont have to keep looking. Just look inside you. Get it out. Keluarlah.. Janganlah berkurung lagi.... You can do it.....